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loop2 surfin raichu
02:23
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chapter 2: star infinity
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Star Infinity
06:04
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oh it’s another day
i wake up in the starlight
i just can’t seem to make it out the door alone
got nothing better than the dream i had
i was walking an endless beach
the sea before me
i was walking all alone
but it didn't hurt
its something i remembered as a child
that was sewn
in my heart there's that empty home
that i left behind
and i suppose
i blame myself
the star is near
i blame myself
i blame you
i'm passing over earth and its the same as always
so many years ago since i forgot my dream
stars raining down around
and it feels like this is the moment
that your whole life revolves around
and it was clear
that you wouldn't stay
the way that you reminded me that time
it hurts
to think back when i was just a child
i didn't know
that this could ever happen
i blame myself
i blame myself
i blame you
i blame myself
i blame myself
i blame you
i blame myself
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3. |
How Long?
04:18
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in the aisle to see
i can show you im alright
take more than you can carry
you wake every single night
and how long has it been since
you were breathing
this is what it takes
til you're truly alright
and how long has it been since
you were living
mmm about every time
i've needed you
i've needed
i've needed
i've found a way
and i cannot be found again
you break
in a million different ways
to your knees you lose track of
every single passing day
you've disintegrated
you're bleeding
mmm about every time
i've needed you
i've needed
i've needed
i've found a way
and i cannot be found again
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loop3 INFINITY NEBULA
01:30
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[i've been on my last thought
as i wake in the snow
oh what will
no place for me
when you hold me in your arms
i could've stayed for a minute
oh my hands are not enough
it is never]
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those days are over
time to let it go
time to move on back and go home
you need a minute
look a final time
he's still waving back in your mind
and time
coming back for you
a reassurance
you made a life and feared dying alone
to lose it again
would just shatter you and its too much
but i
wanna feel again
so what
shall i suffer?
wait in the snow
on my way
home i stop when was the
last noticed we're
in the glow
of the snow again i'm
here in the snow
on my own
and i still can't feel a
thing where i go
how i try for you to wait
now you've done it
time to let it go
time to crawl on back to your hole
in time
you'll forget it all
oh fade to the billions
...star! star! star infinity!...
as a child
i stand
27 feet from the edge
i shield my eyes when it gets too much
but my ears keep ringing and there's nothing i can do to stop
it's a slap in the face
ever since i really saw your faults
that i gotta stop blaming you
for what i've become
we're different now
and we can make our own decisions
and we can give up
if we want
i'm older now
i've failed
i repeated everything that i feared
i went too far
and now i fall
from that ledge
i slip out of time
'cause in this world
there's no time for me
no time for me
no time for me
no time for me
no time for me
no time for me
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6. |
Week 1
02:36
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i've been waking up every night
with your song
in the dark i can't turn it off
it's been long
but i don't mind
anymore
oh i lie alone
that's alright
i'm just waiting up on the other side
oh i
i just need your hand
to give me the line
had the dream again
left awake and gasping
awake
now i can't lie
anymore, anymore
i could die
and that's alright
i'm just waiting up on the other side
oh i
i just need your hand
to give me the line
i'm still waiting up on the other side
oh i
i just need your hand
to give me the line
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7. |
Closer
02:04
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two steps closer i can't even wait
[you're the only one that's even close]
you just smile that's the way it is
[i can only stop can't make it now]
three steps and i'm almost here
[i'm not thinking anymore]
pressed against the wall
[perhaps it's not, perhaps it is oh]
i can't open myself here
[i'm almost there to escape]
beads of sweat on your skin perforate
[well where'd i come to]
i've got everything that i need
[i've got everything that i need]
ah except whatever was in my head again
[except again again]
one step in my head
where you are
where you are but
i drown my head all in the sand again again again
[i drown everything you need tell me you're ok]
closer
closer
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nobody can reach me
when they walk into the room
all the things i keep from you
i make no attempt
to let anyone in
so its clear when things go wrong
then you sing to me
all your feelings pouring out
you sounded just like me
weakness underneath
you wished you could just leave this forever
then gripping the railing
'cause i cant go on
not another night's worth no
but you sing
will you let me be
as fucked up as i am
and i won't be afraid
of nothing
so sing for me
and leave me
so i walk into the room
and they sing the words with me
i played it such a good way tonight they say
then back to the corner
it doesn't change a thing
doesn't make your life no better
i'll say this is me
shave my head again and again
and i leave
but they let me be myself
and never see them again
for real this time
cleaning up on my own
as everyone walks out
sing for me
no time
no time
no time
no time
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when the night comes near
you come over again
but i fear it
the impending ring
then you'll have to leave me here
and i fear
tell me how many days
does it have to take before you walk away
us alone
should take the train just like i wrote
grace leaving home
it could be just like the movies
if you stay for no one else
if we can make it last until the end
if we can make it last until the end
i can see
there's a place above the trees
you don't know
looking out through the shades
it's another sunny day
yet i fear it
tell me how many days
does it have to take until we can escape
our lives
you had a taste and now it's harder
where is the time
when the seconds turn to hours
tell me give us a line
and we can make it last until the end
i need you now
i need you now
tell me okay
i need you now
i need you now
tell me i'm safe
if i close my eyes
we're together once again
like the first time
with the leaves coming down
i reach out, and there you are
in the water waiting
tell me now
will you really live without
this feeling
but the empty space
only dark skies remain
at the ending
listen
i'm coming up
i'm coming up
i got it
i'm coming up
i'm coming up
i'm coming out
i need you now
i need you now
i need you here
i need you now
i need you now
i need you here
tell me how many days
does it have to take until we can escape
our lives
we had a taste and now it's harder
where is the time
when the seconds turn to hours
tell me give us a line
[i need you now
i need you now
tell me it's okay
i need you now
i need you now
tell me we're safe]
and we can make it last until the end
and we can make it last until the end
tell me how many days
does it have to take until we can escape
our lives
we had a taste and now it's harder
where is the time
when the seconds turn to hours
tell me give us a line
and we can make it last until the end
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nobody remembers me
in time
wandering the city
alone
i disappear
into a crowd
into the city
a tiny room
where my body rots for weeks
without a sound
without a single soul
looking for me
oh you fantasize about your end
every day
after every failed interaction
lie on the pavement
eyes glazing over
voice hoarse
forgetting reality
and dreams
in the lands between
travelling travelling
actually
can't move
nothing i say matters
it's all a joke
in the passenger seat
strapped down and sinking
into grey
in a daze
in and out of consciousness
fading
fading
on a mountainside sheep stare
at the setting sun
the farmer holds his ear to the dirt
and listens for the soft rumble
of an ancient power
the earth dies
mountains crumble
and all is still in the coming night
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11. |
Alex's Room
01:27
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everything breaks as they chase us out of the house
and we're crazy laughing running laughing
hand in hand
this boy
this boy
makes me more
than myself
it's just us
in his car
in his room
cuz when alex comes
takes me in his arms
and makes me feel good
what could i say
we take our past lives
and throw them away
we throw them away
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like i feel it now
walking backwards
walking on backwards
like i feel it now
like i missed some
walking on back
like i need it
you caught my mind
and you cry cry on
for a thousand times
like i need
it's not about me
in this century
one day i'll be
better than me
just watch me
just watch me
one day i'll be
better than me
just watch me
just watch me
so ask me one more time
when is the last time
when is the last
for us
one day i'll be
better than me
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in the morning
i am waking
he is waking
sun is coming up
and it hits me every time
as he leaves me
as i'm standing
door is closing
and we're broken up
i am losing my whole life
nobody ever said it's easy
i can feel it burn
and i have stumbled my whole life
nobody good can make it easy
i can feel it turn
'cause when we lose we will be fine
so it's changing
i am changing
in the doorway
i am lucid now
i can take it for my life
then i'm walking
and i'm walking
down the driveway
to the city now
i will take it every time
i'll get everything that i could ever ask for
and i'll see it on my own darling
i don't need anything and i don't need anyone else to tell me what to do
nobody said it would be easy
i can feel it burn
and i have stumbled all my life
nobody good can make it easy
i can feel it turn
'cause when we lose we will be fine
no one said it would be easy
i can feel it burn
and i have stumbled all my life
nobody good can make it easy
i can feel it turn
'cause when we lose we will be fine
alright, one two one two
take it easy
i couldn't slow so i can only try
to make it easier
the last one so i could make it make it make it
make it
always staying
-mumbling-
nobody said it would be easy
i can feel it burn
and i have stumbled all my life
nobody good can make it easy
i can feel it turn
'cause when we lose we will be fine
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14. |
Alex
03:08
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everyone breaks when we ran laughing from the house
and we hopped in the back of the car
my mama told me i'd be wasting my life on you
but what did i say? i said i'd do mine
your eyes say it all
oh another morning til you return on in
with the hot desert wind on your back
this boy
this boy got it all
won't pretend
i didn't fuck it up
threw it away
this boy
this boy could've won
if he never loved a boy like me
threw it away
threw it away
i held my face to the stars and prayed for your life
as you lay in our blood breathing out on me
i laid you deep in the sand and the stars just laughed
said you get nothing
in the cold
only needed nothing
but to get you to laugh another time
and i'm goin nowhere
and did i ever see a single thing
when through it all you tried your best
this boy
this boy had it all
won't pretend i didn't fuck it up
no time for me
no time for me
no time for me
i blame myself
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Time Under Me
05:03
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time unearthed
under me flows the stream
and up through the clouds
there's a place that i go
it glows burning white
burning red sacrifice
and time
yeah but its over now
again like i was
afraid
like i was
time left earth
i cant tell anymore
honourless
i was there
you can feel it
but i swear
it is - always- churning
and its seething
and its there
but its not
and its over now
again like i knew
how you shook from me little pieces
of your dream
like i wish again
always
always
always
time you left
me there on the edge
you left i can see
when you lost your face
unless
yes and its over
like i thought
any old time you leave your pieces
to find
like i was
i find
like i was
youll find
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and you
got nothing better to do
so why not sit back and enjoy the view
a hundred stories up
from the concrete
above the rising pain
stay
stay
passing the time as we lay
daylight fades into grey
the rain was coming but we couldn't run
waiting
'til we were silent and we'd had enough
the stars were falling yesterday
we stay
we stay
our dreams
float away
(do i still think of you?)
i do
i do
i do
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fallingstar
02:43
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what makes me
the same as you
it is the way we meet our end
it's not the way
when i look at the sky
i see an empty thing
and you see
possibility i think
possibility i think
possibility i think
i looked to the sky
and cried out
for nothing
for nothing
i looked to the sky
and cried out
for nothing
for nothing
i tried looking through the glass
but it closed on me
and tasting the waters of the mountain stream
and walking in the valley of the dead
i couldn't do it in the end
moving with the passengers
the sirens going distant
until
there is nothing left
but this emptiness
i lost myself today
the shadows already fading from my vision
green means nothing to me
and i am so sorry that i failed you again
buckling under the pressure
falling to the broken glass
gums torn and bleeding
half awake
sinking lower
and lower
and lower
still breathing
still waking
still
until it stops
one two three four
one two three four go
i tried
i tried everything
but nothing
nothing
seems to work
for me
nothing
nothing
nothing
nothing
i tried
i tried
i tried
i tried
i tried
i tried
i tried
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of course how could i not forgive you
for everything you said to me
i still go outside and wish i laid myself down
to see you again
no i don't wanna blame you anymore
i leave it all
what happened next
you did it in the moment
and i knew i'd do the same
i blame myself
i blame myself
i blame myself
you put it all on my head
til i crumble into nothing just like that
you won't wait for me
if
if you had a moment
if you had a second
if you could give anything
i swear to you
i blame myself
i blame myself
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