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See You

by Christopher Ma

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Intro 01:36
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Good Fantasy 03:08
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If I was older Would I have the answers Or die regretting Still would I avert my eyes. Still hesitating At the taste of honey And left awake 'til This is something clear to me. I had it all I failed I failed I fell in love with you In love with you. I was awakened At the break of morning Arose with purpose Left it all behind me. I had a dream By the window, to the morning star I had a dream As the wind goes, whispered in the breeze. I had it all I failed I failed I fell in love with you In love with you.
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Darker 03:24
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Make it bright Make it darker And I Can change. In the garden In the corner Under covers I can see. Make it bright Make it darker And I Can change. In the attic In the cellar Under silence I can see. Make it bright Make it darker And I Can change.
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Sometimes 04:30
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When I was just thirteen Found it in the yard So withered, tearing up Cradled in the arms Of its death, saw you looking up. Underneath in the porch Waiting for my ride I saw it for the second time Never could forget Its eyes, nothing was behind Just emptiness. Sometimes life fucks you up Till you can't reach it Lie still, dead in the box I am not a person Forget I still exist Chained in the garden Your life, born as a sin Holding your lover. 20 feet underground I hear it every night When I wake it's no use Did the best to hide These days away from everyone. Sometimes I could not say What is it I need You said I shouldn't be Speaking so softly Moving all of the time And never slowing Dreamer of an escape My voice of reason.
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Sleepless Eyes 05:05
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Would you stay with me If I If I had an answer You sense it Don't you. As it comes through the reeds The wind As it I am running The sand between The flow. Repeat after me Three words Deep in I remember The canopy So green. Awake How could it be. That you leave it all behind Do you mean it when When was the last time When you're asleep The room changes. I went past it again So I So I Where were you standing So many years So green I go What isn't there (In the morning) That you leave it all behind Do you mean it when When was the last time. What would it mean What would it mean What would it mean to me I go back. When you have to leave And you Had to look away In the canopy So free.
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Grace 01:07
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Next Year 09:50
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Open your heart And see the red On my thumb from where you bit At the end they all went home In the end we break alone. Open your heart Believe I wish we could stay In this house alone We're free to forget Our life our deaths And no one around to stare. Will I ever survive the night Will I ever survive tomorrow Till next year We find we go Wherever we're finally alone. When I'm alone With you I'm already there I could die without regret No one else could do to me I am red tonight You see. Will I ever survive the night Will I ever survive tomorrow 'Till next year We find we go Wherever we're finally alone. No matter what happens To you and I tonight How many take for granted We stare it in the eyes 'Till next year We find we go. No matter what happens To you and I tonight How many take for granted We stare it in the eyes It shouldn't be so hard That I have to run away from this.
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Take Our Time 03:33
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The monsoon I cannot see High and above it Flooding all about Heavy air In the house. Say would you go Out with me To the burning fields we left behind Say would you go Out with me tonight. Grey Grey out tonight Yesterday I was holding my breath in the ocean. What would I say The house was coming down In the moving fields we watch it turn Say would you go Out with me I wait For you to wake.
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Steph Crumbling 06:27
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[Greenhourglass] I've got a notion Laying beside you in the green When was the last time we gave in An alarm goes in the basement And I am alone again. Scanning your pictures The blue so tangible it seeps Glare of the screen its eventual See my death in this utopia Yet away from everyone I know. [Steph Crumbling] Anything you want I will, I will burn my lies In the end no time I run, run away when it is too late No friend to turn to now, to the setting sun Anything you want I was, I was home but it was too late. It was softly When everything began to fall As expected Yet it brought me to the floor We had something We had time But that doesn't change a thing Waiting out All night. Anything you want I couldn't be there when it mattered Most of all you knew How could How could I when it was too late Anything and I Will go I'll return my life This time we won't Have anything left to say.
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Alice in the Garden 03:40
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Alice in the garden What could I have said I had the moment Sitting in my hand. I had the day to myself But that would make everything So much easier to have held But what does the answer say I had the day to myself. I waited till morning Nothing ever came Crumble in the doorway Underneath my shame. I had the day to myself But what does the answer say I had a moment for my health I waited a second too long For my ass to get it right I waited all night yet still That vision kills me every time. ...i see it all... I am awake in my dreams But I still can't change a thing I waste awaiting for my sleep Anxiety shuts me out In darkness cannot close my eyes And nothing will change for me I know my fate has lost my side.
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Red Lip 05:54
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Cut my thumb I could see you You were speaking And I knew it wouldn't change But the moment I forget it As you held me in a dream For a lifetime For the moment It was fine To be Hold your thumb I accept it Ever happened I am waiting for your everything to come and see. Every night I'm in your voice I'm in your voice til I can't hear Anything else Cannot cannot cannot Reply I am waiting for my real life. And realize its not your fault. As I listen To the waves In this crumbling house I am turned on by The radiator light And it sings When I think of you by the river And alone I am waiting for your everything to come to me. Every night I'm in your voice I'm in your voice til I can't hear Anything else Cannot cannot cannot Reply I am waiting for my real life. And realize that I am gone. This is my reply I am running out of things to say To you Don't you stare out the window Don't you smile in your sleep after all This is how it has become And you've been looking around here And there's nothing but me after all This is my reply.
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See You 04:40
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Twenty years on The singing still gets me inside Put down the cigarette And close my eyes. After the show Waiting by the door No one ever comes Not you. Still I am waiting To see you again In my dreams That's all I ask. Twenty years on The singing still gets me inside Turn down the light And close my eyes. When I'm alone Let the water run None else in this room But you and I. But still I am waiting To see you again In my dreams That's all I ask. But still I am waiting To ask you again In my dreams That's all I ask In my dreams In my dreams In my dreams.
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At the End of the Day [bonus track] 02:39
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Home away A memory, bittersweet but true As all things turn out to be. Cross the fields And say you're better off alone And it's true to me. I've been waiting On the other shores I will be safe And I know it's harder. This time We can see it A warmth flows out beneath us Still And completed It only comes now. I don't know If I could do it Walk alone again Be content with everything. Peace around the corner They told me, yet I'm still awake I go out at dawn. This time We can see it Beneath the heavy blankets 'Neath frigid atmosphere Beneath.

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Written and recorded from February to July 2020 during COVID-19 lock down, and consisting mainly of songs written during that period, "See You" presents the most intimate and detailed vision from Christopher Ma yet.

Like previous releases, "See You" was recorded, produced, mixed (and, for the first time, mastered) by Ma at his home studio, with friends providing contributions remotely. The rock-tinged sounds that made up the bulk of seventh album "Every Night" are barely present here, with drums and guitar riffs taking a backseat to more intricate arrangements and whisper-sung vocals. Plucked folk guitars, shimmering synths and lush vocal harmonies are heard throughout the record, with the latter half bringing in electric guitars and drums on the more intense compositions.

At its heart, "See You" is about intense longing and mental illness brought on by extended isolation. Heightened feelings of anxiety and depression inspired the album's themes of dreams and escape, reflected in songs like "Good Fantasy" and "Sleepless Eyes", while "Sometimes" and "Alice in the Garden" deal with trauma more directly. Multiple tracks have added meaning with the onset of the pandemic: "Next Year" features the chorus "Will I ever survive the night / Will I ever survive tomorrow" while the title track closes the album with the lines "Still I am waiting / to ask you again / In my dreams".

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released August 28, 2020

Written, recorded, produced, mixed, mastered by Christopher Ma
Additional contributions recorded remotely by Karen Del Rosario, Stephen Farquhar

Christopher Ma - vocals, classical guitar, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, electric bass, drum set, synthesizer, ukulele, bongos, cowbell, percussion, melodica, piano, field recordings
Caitlin Ma - ukulele [track 7]
Karen Del Rosario - vocals [track 7], upright piano [track 10]
Stephen Farquhar - electric guitar [track 11]

Album art by Christopher Ma

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